Happy Thanksgiving!

Happy Thanksgiving! 

Hope you all have a wonderful Today!

Silver Lining???

I cant believe its already the 24th of November!! This year has been going by way to fast. But hopefully with the good I have coming in my life it will make for a good 2011.

I updated the other day that i got a car! Im very happy with it, has some small issues that i gotta work out and needs wipers and tires but other than that its a good lil car. :)

Now for the rest of things in my life....

I have been workin at Gordmans since July. I love my job there and what I do but at 8.25 and hour i need more than 15 HOURS A WEEK! Impossible right, I hate the stress that comes with money and I was getting very sick of them promising me hours hey werent going to give me. So What did I do you ask? I went and got a better job! Im super excited to start on Monday. I will be getting 40 hours a week and making 10.35 an hour! WHOA! haha I will be working at IBM doing Tech support on Apple Products. Ipods, Ipads, and Iphones! After Jan 1st I will have full Benefits and After 90 days i will go up to  10.60 and hour! I want to keep gordmans for a little while longer but i don't know what they will like me to much when i say "hey i can only work weekends from Now on. haha Oh well not a job worth keeping. If they wont work with me I wont work FOR them. I love the people I work with there and with them only scheduling me two days a week anyway i dont see how they can throw too big of a fit.

So yes I No longer have a 250 dollar car payment anymore and my rent is only 312.50 a month! and with my cell phone and insurance I will be paying about 450 tops a month on bills. SOOOO after bringing home 1400 a month I should be totally good to go on money.

I have needed a silver lining for a long time. The only thing I am missing in my life right now is someone to love. I'm sure that will come but with my past i dont hold out to much hope on it. I have been through a lot when it comes to relationships. The one person i truly saw me spending my life with now lives in England and is marrying someone else. :(  The guy before that is marrying the next girl he went out with. Sound familiar?? I'M  GOOD LUCK CHUCK! haha... I know its probably stupid to look at it that way but i cant help it. I miss being Happy. I cant remember the last time i was truely happy. With EVERYTHING in my life.  Don't get me wrong I am happy for him and wish him the best but wonder alot what would have happened with us had we not went our separate ways when he left. Sigh. who knows really.

Anyway i am going to go start my day but decided it was a good morning to right. Cant/ don't want to do much cause well Its snowing outside and im a weanie when its super cold out. haha Off to work at 3 and then Thanksgiving tomorrow.


Hope you all have a great Thanksgiving! 

Wake me up when November Ends...

I am very ready for November to be over. I'm tired and exhausted and it just has not been a good month for me. I can't completely say the WHOLE month has been complete shit but that's only because its not over yet. Sigh....

Some of you seen my post back on the 13th.I had described to you the most horrible week i have had in a long time.

I found out that insurance WAS going to pay off the rest of what i owed on the car (THANK GOD) but i would only have 600 dollars left over to either buy a car out right or put down on another less expensive car. I ended up finding a car i really liked that would have been 1195 after my down payment, I got really excited about it until i found out NO ONE would finance me for it, as if i was asking for a 15,000 dollar loan! NO just 1500!!! SO I went on with the rest of my car search. I looked and looked and looked.     and looked.   and nothing. I searched everything i could find on Craigslist for what i could afford and yet still Nothing!

So Saturday came around and I had to take my rental car back. Great. I got nothing. Im sitting at home on a saturday night by myself bored. I then entertain myself watchin shows online and catching up with blogs that i have not had time to read when i decide 'Hey im gonna go grab me some smokes and come back home and crawl into bed and watch some friends" I pop on my shows throw on a hoodie and grab me keys. Out the door i go to walk outside and realize I have NO WAY TO GET THERE! I turn around and come back inside and sit down. Then here comes the water works. You see i have had my license for going on 8 years now and never once have i been without a vehicle. When all of this hit me i just lost it. I dont know why it didnt dawn on me before but it slipped passed me. Im just sitting here crying wondering what could happen next.

Well here comes the Silver lining. Yes there is a silver lining sometimes you just have to look for it or be patient and wait for it to appear. Well damn it I got mine,

When my dad was on his way over Today to help me go find a car i was looking online. He got here and still nothing was popping up that was even worth looking at. I decided what the hell and typed exactly what I wanted into the search bar on Craigslist and BAM an add i hadn't seen once popped up from 11 days ago. It was in the add for 1000 and i decided what the hell im gonna call them and see if its still there and if they are willing to work with me whatsoever. I got lucky. When i talked to them they told me that i could come look at it but they weren't sure if they could let it go for 600 because of the fact that it was a pretty good car and worth a lil more than that. So we haggled a lil bit and Thanks oh so much to my dad (helping me out til payday) We settled at 800.



It has a lil bit of paint missing and the bumper and hubcaps don't match but what the heck i got me a car!

I have sooo much more to say but maybe you will all get lucky and I will do me another blog tomorrow

Goodnight 

Also one last thing before i go! Thank you so much Emily for your prayers that i would find another car. Its because of good people like you in this world that people like me can have a little faith during your bad days! I appreciate you more than you know. 

The start of a Very loooooong week!

Hey guys, I actually got time to sit down at the computer for the first time in what feels like forever!!! Last week was the most terrible week I have had in a long time! I think I wish I could just rewind and start over. 

Friday night/Saturday morning I was woken up to the most scary Crash I have ever woken up to in my life. Only to find out that a drunk driver, hit a car on the street, swerved over the curb, through a sign, through a tree. He hit a car in the parking lot, and then took out the whole front in of my roommates car, while pushing her car into mine, he hit mine, and they both slammed mine into another vehicle. Totaling my car.... I dont know what to do, its so sad for me, I loved my car, it was my baby and now i will never be able to drive it again :(

So... Now i am waiting on insurance to do what insurance does and then I dont know where to go from here. I have never been in an accident, let alone delt with all of this that I am dealing with right now.

Then after getting my rental car, and driving that for a couple days, I get pulled over for running a red light! I didnt run a red light! The car behind me ran a red light! And because I am in a nice (rental) car I get the ticket!!! This sucks butt!



(My rental^^^)

THEN ... While I was at work on Thursday night, I was helping Kristen with a shoplifter. Kristen in our Asset Protection person for Gordmans. So when I went to help he with the apprehension we got the stuff back and then the shoplifter decided it would be a good idea to HIT US WITH HER CAR. So the last two days my whole left side of my body hurts!!!

I think tonight is a GREAT night to go have a beer and just chill. doing NOTHING. haha

So there is an update of my week!